Until I hit my head, HARD!

Yes, I fell in big major LOVE, fucking heart wrecking LOVE.
He loved me back so he told me...So I fell some more, realising all the times I thought I was in love before had been all fake, none of them could compare to this feeling. I felt great, and couldn't wait for the next day to come so I could see him again. He would appear in all my dreams and I couldn't stop thinking about him anymore...Until, everything came crashing down.

He started rejecting me...
Never being able to do something after school or in the weekends, always having to go somewhere or do something. Acting more distant and closed off. Denying he likes anyone in our class, the reason though I already know.

But, could it be that he doesn't like me anymore? Maybe I'm overreacting and stressing out, I've been crying for 2 days and I don't know why. All I know is that I cannot be without him, I can't stand it. God, this sounds really mushy...But that's just the way it is.

So now you're wondering what exactly happened right?

It started after camp, I was on my computer on Hyves.nl, when he suddenly started talking to me. He gave me some compliments about the courage I had shown during camp and asked my msn and mobile number. Which I gave happily because I had already fallen in love. So after that he asked me if I liked anyone in our class, I told him I did and he kept on asking who. So I confessed. He promesed me not to tell anyone and that he liked me back but wanted to get to know me better. So we talked on msn, almost everyday, though we did not speak to eachother during school because we were both too shy, but our looks said all. We got really close and even did stuff like going out after school once. But then...Internet gave out, so we didn't talk much anymore. When I asked if he wanted to go to a music festival with me he said he couldn't go. Internet didn't work for 3 weeks, causing us to hardly talk. But then, when I was over at my friend, he came online. I started talking to him and he replied. I asked him if he liked anyone in our class, he was silent for almost 15 minutes when he finally said 'EuuHmmm...' 'no' One of my friends says it's because my other friend was with me ( which was made clear in my name.) I don't know what to think though. I later on called him if he wanted to do something on saturday, he told me he had a football match. That's where it ends.

I don't know what to do, I'm just not able to let him go so how should I solve this?

( you also know the reason now for me being gone so long.)

Please help.

Priscilla.

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Yah I just wanted to updata ma journal.
So, I admit I haven't really been active lately, but that just because my whiny dumbass bro was home
And he will be back friday
But anyway, I am working on several drawings tho.
- My Zutara week will be finished .
- Some deidara drawings I still need to finish.
- Maybe some Gaasaku too.
- An old Azula one I still need to finish.
- Some naruto comics 8D
- And be prepared cuz there will be Dbz showing up in my gallery

So yeah, I have a lort of work to do as you can see.
Wish me luck



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Yes indeed, I am entering the Zutara week.
That means that I will upload a Zutara drawing every day starting from JULY 7TH until JULY 13TH.
With:

Day 1: Denim
Day 2: Electrifying
Day 3: Smug
Day 4: Manipulative
Day 5: Mythology
Day 6: Stare
Day 7: Pinch

I do think I have a little problem though, my brother will be home on the excact day the week starts, and I have no clue when he will be gone again. I'll try my best to get a chance to be able to color my drawings digitally. That is my nindou!!! ( lol not really but still )
So yeah, I shall set my lazyness aside, and start making this week, the most awesome week in fandom history! Just like the ship it is dedicated to!

Wish me luck!

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